amber

Sat, 28 Dec 2002 23:37:41 GMT

my grandpa is in the hospital. it sounds like he only has a few days left to live, if that. they basically said to stop feeding him, or you're prolonging the inevitible.

wow, really long time no update

Thu, 19 Dec 2002 04:30:28 GMT

yea, so i haven't written in here in a pretty long time. sorry about that. i have a dead journal too now, and i like that better because the servers don't suck, but i have friends on livejournal. my dead journal:
http://www.deadjournal.com/~kloud

so yeaaaaaaa

i saw the two towers today. it made me piss my pants 9 times, it was SO good. im like, so excited about it, i cant even talk logically about it. it was GOOD though. and it was fun too. i went with dave and my little sister (who was being a bitch). before hand, we were all excited and stuff, and played with the webcam. the results:

http://www.goeatspam.com/ambanddave.jpg

yea, dave is one sexy bitch, lol.

im at my parents' for the holidays by the way. sooooo. ummmm.

over and out!

the OTHER survey that ben had

Tue, 03 Dec 2002 02:17:26 GMT

1) Name: amber
2) DOB: september 9, 1983
3) Eyes colour: Blue
4) Hair colour: naturally light brown, currently blonde
5) Height: 5'6" ish
6) Ear Type: huh?
7) How many brothers and sisters do you have?: 1 brother, 2 sisters, all younger
8) Do you like your parents?: yes, although i fight with them a lot
9) live at home?: i am homeless.
10) Do you have your own car?: yes, but it doesnt usually live with me
11) School/TAFE/UNI?: univ of florida
12) Do you like school/TAFE/UNI?: when i actually try, im sure it will be cool.
13) You have a xbox or playstation 2? neither
14) Do you want a xbox or a plastation 2? i wouldnt mind getting a ps2
15) Would you eat a poo sandwitch for $1,000,000?: of course i would. i do that anyway.
16) What's the most embrassing thing you have ever done?: i dont know, i do things that should be embarassing a lot.
17) What's the first thing you wash when you get in the shower? usually my hair, but not always.
18) Do you face the water or do you have your back to the water? i alternate, but mostly my back.
19) If you could make your own magazine where you had to collect things each week what would you they collect? pictures of people's hands.
20)Whats inside the box? huh?
21) Favourite food?: chips and salsa are really good, but i dont think i have a favorite.
22) Favourite drink?: apple juice, water.
23) Do you believe in God: no
24) How many e-mail addresses do you own?: 3
25) Would you ever go to the shops in your pj's: i used to all the time. and school too.
26) Have you ever broken something in a shop?: not that i can think of, but im pretty clumsy, so its likely that its happened.
27) Do you like raining days or sunny days? rainy. its smells good and its relaxing to listen to.
29) What's in your cd player? psychedelic furs in the car, jawbreaker on computer
30) What was the last movie you saw? amelie... so good.
31) Do you type with all your fingers? yes
32) Ever worn different shoes thinking they were the same? yep
33) What happened to 28? hmmm, maybe it was abducted. but twenty "nein" is next ; )
34) What would you do if there was a monkey in your backyard? take a picture
35) What is your dream job? something in cinema or writing, or both.
36) If I gave you $20 what would you spend it on? ummm, probably cds.
37) What is your favourite song? i really like a lot, but i seem to listen to "starry configurations" by jets to brazil an awful lot.
38) What was your favourite movie when you were 10 years old? no idea
39) Favourite movie of all time? fight club
40) What age group do you classify old? i dont really.
41) Is the glass half empty of half full? i dont know.
42) Whats three things you wish for? i dont know.
43) Where is your favourite place to go? hmmm. long island i guess.
44) If you could be someone else for a day who would you be? uhh. someone that doesnt live in florida.
45) If you got free tickets to see a band you didn't like you would still go and see them? i dont know
46) If you could make up a new language what would you call it? fuck
47) What brand shampoo do you use? i dont know, i switch so much.
48) What song do you have in your head? lay lady lay (i heard it on the radio yesterday... DAMN THE RADIO!!)
49) Have you ever seen a r rated movie if so what was it? are you kidding?
50) If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? i would also be more confident.
51) Whats your favourite thing you own? a tie between the computer and the car.
52) If there was a fire or a flood what three things would you take with yourself? my pictures, my cds, and i dont know what else.
53) If you could envent something what would you envent? .....envent? (im gonna hafta go with that too)
54) Do really think that we are going have flying cars in the future? i dont care.
55) What tv shows do you want back on TV: ren and stimpy.
56) How many CDs do you own? dont know.
57) What was the first CD you bought: wow, i have no idea.
59) Do you think babies can understand each other? no
60) Do you shave or wax? shave
61) Whats one thing you can't live without for 40 days and 40 nights? music
62) If you could have a magic power what would it be? the ability to make friends... wait, thats not magic... the ability to fly.
63) Favourite smell: rain
64) What do you mostly do when you are on the computer? chat, download stuff
65) If you could go any where in the whole world where would you go? maryland
66) Have you ever met anyone famous? yea
67) Whats the weirdest thing someone has ever told you? i dont knwo
68) Why do people like you? they usually dont...
69) Whats one thing you could never give up? free thought (i go with that too)
70) Hot chocolate or ice chocolate? hot
71) Whats the weirdest thing you have ever done? fall asleep in the dorm bathroom
72) Whats your favourite type of music? punk?
73) If you saw someone famouse but you were looking like a dag would you still say hi? i have no idea. i guess i would. its not like theyd ever see me again.
74) What do you look for in a guy/girl? intelligence. the ability to accept the things that i do different, without wanting to change me. a sense of humor couldnt hurt.
75) Favourite brand name? none of my stuff has brand names on it
76) Favourite tv show/s? xfiles, adult swim, ren and stimpy

dave is so fucking cool

Thu, 28 Nov 2002 02:18:30 GMT

yesterday was a pretty cool day.

i woke up bright and early, after about 3 hours of sleep, and took my brother to school. on the way there, he bought me a big cup of coffee, which made me happy.

once at school (this is the high school that i graduated from in may), i went over to the band room to seek out my non-graduated friends (and the band teacher), but specifically dave. i was so worried that he would hate me, but he didnt at all.

i hung out in the band office all day, playing computer games, or sitting on the couch. mr. case's free period is last of the day, and we went to publix to get some lunch. he taught me about beer pong (a game i probably wont ever play, since i dont really drink much).

when school let out, i went to band practice (god im a dork). it was a little disappointing, but fun. then dave and i hung out for a few hours, and we had a lot of fun. we went to a smoke shop, then we drove up to sarasota. all the way there, dave did funny shit that the people in the cars around us laughed at. it was great. i really missed dave.

once in sarasota, we went to the music shop. dave had to pick up some trumpet music. in the store, we played with some guitars and stuff. once again, it was fun.

next we went to livingstone's and played a few games of pool. i tried teaching dave how to play nine ball, but i couldnt relaly remember it myself, so it didnt work out so well. i kicked his ass at eight ball though : ) livingstone's also has an arcade, and we spent a few bucks in there playing this neat game in a booth with guns and stuff. lots of fun. it made me miss justin a lot though :\ (i hear he's in town, but he doesnt have time to hang out with his friends, which makes me a little sad/angry/upset, but whatever.)

after pool, i took dave back to his car, and we called it a night. im sooooo glad that we hung out though, it was tons of fun.

today was shitty and boring though. ive been at my parents' house, and i cant stand my whole family. im trying just to ignore them, but its a little hard when i dont even have a bedroom. i kinda fixed my guitar, and im trying to learn how to play it, but it annoys my family and they bitch at me even more.

im also having some anxiety about my grandpa. i still havent seen him (every time i go over there, hes sleeping). i stopped there on the way home from hanging with dave to drop off some milk, and i had hoped to see him then, but he was in bed already. same thing when we stopped on our way from my school to here the other night. everytime i think im gonna see him and dont, i get a little bit stressed about actually seeing him.

the survey that ben had

Sat, 23 Nov 2002 05:11:02 GMT

[ Last Time ]

Really Smiled : earlier today, likely while chatting with chris.
Laughed : when i was talking to my room mate a while ago.
Cried : a few days ago while talking to my mom.
Bought something : CDS!!!!! a little earlier this week.
Danced : i dont really know how to dance. im more of a singer and a foot tapper.
Were sarcastic : within the hour im sure
Kissed someone : :(
Watched your favorite movie : over a month ago. i miss fight club.
Had a nightmare : earlier this week
Were lulled to sleep by the thought of someone : earlier this week.

[ A Last time for everything.. ]

Last book you read : god i haven't read a book in so long.
Last song you heard: neil diamond - "sweet caroline"
Last thing you had to drink : water
Last time you showered : yesterday morning
Last thing you ate : rice

[ Fashion ]

1. Do you wear a watch : nah
2. How many coats and jackets : do i own? a couple.
4. Most expensive item of clothing : i have no idea. it would probably be my shoes i guess, but even they werent THAT expensive.
5. What kind of shoes do you wear : i have a couple different kinds.

[ Friends ]

1. Do your friends 'know' you : one of them does
2. What do they tend to be like : ?? my friends? i have no idea.
3. Are there traits in you that are universally liked : i dont really know. maybe i dont have any.
4. are there people that you tell everything to: jen knows almost everything. almost.

[ Other ]

1. Favorite band ever: soooo many. probably jets to brazil?
2. Most listened to bands : jets to brazil, jawbreaker, the muffs, screaching weasel (currently)
3. Do you find any musicians good-looking : chris schuman and mitch clem.
4. Can you play an instrument : a lot of them, but primarily the trumpet
5. Type of music listened to : i listen to a pretty wide range of music, but lately its been a lot of punk i guess.
6. Type never listened to : country

[ Religion ]

1. Do you detest religion : not at all
2. How do you think this universe was formed : i dont really have an opinion on that.
3. If you currently follow a religion, do you think people who belong to another religion are ignorant: im not religious, but i think some people that follow some religions are pretty ignorant. i dont know.

[ Homosexuality ]

1. What is the first thing you think when you see two gay guys or lesbians holding hands : i dont really think much of it i guess.
2. do you agree or disagree with gay or lesbian couples bringing up children : i dont like kids, but i agree with it just as much as i would with a straight couple bringing up kids.

[ General Questions ]

1. Whom do you believe is the smartest man alive at the moment: i dont know.
2. What do you prefer, a sunny or rainy day : rainy. it sounds pretty.
3. Do you consider yourself lucky : sometimes
4. Do you feel pity for people who commit suicide : a little
5. Choose one word to describe how you feel most often : stupid

[ Stuff ]

1. Do you own any plaid clothing : no
2. Do you own Converse shoes : i want some
3. Do you own Saucony shoes : no
4. Do you own old school Nikes : no
5. Do you wear tight pants : nope
6. Is there more than one zipper in your pants : right now im wearing drawstring sweats.
7. Do you own a messenger bag : yes
8. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest :no
9. Do you own braces : no
10. Are braces worn anywhere besides the mouth : i dont even get it.
11. Do you have short, shaggy hair : i guess for a chick i do.
12. Does your hairstyle exceed a height of 3 inches : no
13. Would you classify your hair as a deadly weapon : i dont think so...
14. Do you think mohawks are "neat" : kind of. sometimes (usually) theyre just stupid.
15. Is your hair black or red : bleached blonde - pink soon i think.
16. Do you have a favorite brand of hair dye : ive never really dyed my hair, but ive got a thing of pink manic panic.
17. Do you own a bandana : no
18. Do you wear plugs in your ears : no
19. Are you amused by safety pins : amused by them? what?
20. Have you ever used duct tape as a sewing substitute : yes
21. Do you own one or more objects with studs or spikes in them : nope
22. Do you own one or more articles of clothing from Dogpile, Lip Service, or Tiger of London : none of the above
23. Do you enjoy leopard print: not really

[ Habits/Beliefs ]

25. Are you disgruntled (having a general hate for everything): sort of... not everything.
26. Are you an anarchist : no
27. Does the American flag anger you : no. but all the sudden patriotism after 9/11 kinda pissed me off.
28. Are you "working class" : i dont know.
29. Do you dislike "preps" : not the whole group.
30. Do you dislike Hot Topic : they sell some okay things, but i think the ideals behind the store are kind of silly, as are a lot of the people that shop there.
31. Do you smoke cigarettes : every once in a while (as in, its been over a month).
32. Do you smoke cloves : i used to.
33. Are you a thin waif : no.
34. Are you vegan/vegetarian : yes
35. Do you think meat is murder : not really, i just prefer not to eat it.
36. Do your nighttime activites usually involve drunken underage vomiting : if by 'drunken underage vomiting' you mean sitting in front of my computer... then yes.
37. Have you ever slept in an alley or park : no, but ive slept in my car before.
38. Do you wash your hair less than once a week : not usually.
39. Have you ever gone a week without a shower : yea...
40. Have you ever been avoided due to your odor : i dont know, its not like anyone's told me that
43. Are you a member of the Makeout Club : theres a makeout club?
44. Do you say "rad" : sometimes.

asdfuckjl;

Thu, 21 Nov 2002 17:56:14 GMT

today i will be officially dropping 2 of my classes. i hope this is the right way to go. you're only allowed 2 drops until you're a junior, so i better not fuck up again.

last night mitch and i tried pulling a prank on my room mate from "the ring," but she didn't fall for it at all. she was just like, "someone just did that '7 days' thing." when i told her it was mitch, she laughed at us. he has a very nice voice though.

i was bored again last night, and this is how i spent some time:

heh.

i took some more quizzes the other day. here are the results from my favorites:

Which Recurring Kevin Smith Character Are You?</b></a> Take the test here

What Office Space character are you?
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What guitar are you?
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yeeeeeeeeaaaaaaa....

my mom doesnt hate me, and other stuff

Tue, 19 Nov 2002 19:51:15 GMT

last night i talked to my mom. i apologized for never calling to see how she was, and she apologized for getting upset at me. im really glad were speaking again.

i turned in that story i wrote a few weeks ago last week, and nine of my fellow students read it. yesterday i got the feed back, and for the most part, everyone (including the teacher) really liked it. yay for that.

today i started registering my classes for next semester. i could kill myself for waiting so long -- everything i want to take is filled up! im trying to work around it though. i need to start getting on track for journalism.

tomorrow is going to be a very busy day. i need to get the paper work required to drop my classes, and start taking care of that. tomorrow is also my first career intake counseling appointment. i think this program will help me figure out what i need to be doing. i hope im right.

i finally got a music downloader that works from my campus. im so happy. mitch has been helping me out by recommending great bands, which i really appreciate. for the most part, i really trust his taste in music.

oh yea, and im blonde now:

Tue, 19 Nov 2002 01:30:52 GMT

What's your sexual appeal?
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my mom hates me, and some more quizzes

Sun, 17 Nov 2002 01:53:57 GMT

my mom told me today that i am selfish and and i fucking suck and i'm a brat. all this because i do a comic. *sigh* i know shes upset, but i think that was going a little far. its not like im NOT upset.

on a happier note, last night i was SOO bored (happier?) and i scanned a picture of my hand that looks really strange.

then i took a zillion quizzes at quizilla. here's just a few of them:

What kind of punk kid are you?
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What box do you get put in?
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What Final Fantasy summon are you?
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some quizzes

Fri, 15 Nov 2002 17:23:40 GMT

What Kind of Coffee are You? by Medox

What Classic Pin-up Are You? by Medox

What Sign of Affection Are You?
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Who are you?

i'm doing stuff right!! ....sort of

Fri, 15 Nov 2002 05:29:44 GMT

today, i called a financial adviser, and was delighted to find out that i WON'T lose my bright futures scholarship if i drop classes! yay!

i got every section of my website up except the characters, which im pretty thrilled about.

on the not-so-happy side, it's come to my attention that people might feel like i did a cross-over series to get more popular. i was devastated to find that out, because the real reason i did crossovers was to be able to express my love for my favorite comics. now, as a beginning comic artist, ive already managed to build myself a shitty reputation :\

well tomorrow's comic is the last of the cross-over series.

long time no update

Thu, 14 Nov 2002 05:48:07 GMT

it's been a while, but i am alive and almost well.

i finally got a domain name -- and a host! -- for my comic, and it is now up and almost fully functional. i did that yesterday, and it was really one of the happiest days of my life. you can find it here:

www.goeatspam.com

i wrote all the html and made all the graphics myself, and im really proud of them.

now if only i was doing as well in school as i am with my website :\

i've been listening to this really great streaming radio thing that carrington recommended on his website, and ive discovered a band that i really like. theyre called lush (it's the station's album of the fiscal week). i liked them so much, i ordered one of their cds. i also ordered the new JTB cd. i havent even gotten all the other cds i ordered yet. this is an insane addiction, and an expensive one.

okay, im out. but ill be back. damn.

im still here. . . or am i??

Sat, 09 Nov 2002 01:39:09 GMT

today i made what is in my opinion, the best looking comic i have ever made. w00t! ("lol".... hi carrington!)

last night i was imed by someone that wanted to tell me she loved my comic, and that i inspired her to draw comics. that made me feel so good, it was wonderful.

today i went to an academic adviser. i might need to drop a few things, im unsure at this point.

currently, i have no news on my grandpa. im avoiding talking to anyone from "home," because i know right now they dont need the added stress that is talking to me. last time i talked to my mom, she got pissed off and hung up. im gonna wait til things settle a bit i think before i talk to her again. my sister says my mom misses me.

but yea, about my grandpa. ive always been very close to him, but for some reason, this is not affecting me. i feel terrible that i feel that way though. i dont know if it just hasnt sunk in, or what. maybe im just losing it. i dont know.

monica went away for the weekend again. shes a wonderful room mate and everything, but i like it when shes gone, cuz i get naked time (assuming its not too cold). i leave on that note.

oh, and i got my m&ms by the way. purple sucks.

Wed, 06 Nov 2002 21:18:14 GMT

my grandpa has cancer. it's not fixable.

in other not so bad news, today i went to get some career counseling, so maybe i could fix my fucked up life, and they can't see me until the twentieth. joy.

i need some m&ms.

blah blah blah and more blah

Wed, 06 Nov 2002 18:51:22 GMT

today i figured out how to host images on aric's server, so hopefully my site wont shut down due to bandwith problems again for a while. by the way, my site is here.

yesterday i paid my rent. woo. i also made a couple billion phone calls around campus to try to find some place to maybe take an aptitude test and stuff. i finally found out what to do, and will be going to do it as soon as im done with this.

my mediocre day was much improved by my night however, when i received fanart art from rosie posie. it made me soooooo happy. i was like, squealing and stuff, ask my room mate. then, shortly after, i got another fanart from aric. i dont think ive been that happy in weeks. you can see both the fanarts from my site, as i am too lazy to link them here (and im in a bit of a hurry).

so last night me and jen decided we live too far away from eachother now. we miss being able to get to eachother's house in less than 5 minutes (it now takes 3 hours). we dont know what were gonna do about it, but at least we thought about it. this exploding dog picture does a great job of expressing how i feel about jen.

time for me to go, but ill be back (oh no!).

Tue, 05 Nov 2002 18:54:20 GMT

okay, i some how fucked up that cam link before. here it is again, maybe:
http://www.nopantstuesday.com/cams/

this just in...

Tue, 05 Nov 2002 08:33:12 GMT

...ben baker is god! really, check this out. Right now. GO!

hmmm... what else? i think i've killed carrington about 8 times in the last couple days, haha.

today i became elite (but not really). zach from no pants tuesday (GREAT comic) deemed me cool enough to be on his cam portal. check it out
here .

my current song right now is AWESOME! if you haven't heard it, i really recommend downloading it or something. it's really great. thank you to mitch for making it available for me.

speaking of music, last night i ordered a bunch of cds from half.com, and got an excellent deal. i can't wait til they get here.

jumping back on the school bandwagon looks like it's gonna be much harder than i thought. poo.

tomorrow i update my comic, i hope. it's gonna have some nn2s people in it. i hope it goes over well and that mitch likes it.

let's see... other good things include rosie is really super cool and nice, and ill be dying my hair pink permanently this weekend (i hope).

i am building a world for you

Mon, 04 Nov 2002 00:28:57 GMT

today i am doing well. yay.

i slept naked last night, and it was nice. sadly, that'll be my last naked night for a while, as my room mate came home today.

i was randomly imed by someone today who wanted to tell me they love my comic. i don't think people realize how good this makes me feel. really, it made my day.

i cleaned my room today. i give myself til about tuesday before it gets to be a sty again.

i also decided today that i will be starting a zine. im really excited about this. i'm just so motivated today!

hmmmm, what else... this week, im gonna try to get back into the swing of things school wise. i don't know if it'll work out, but i'm gonna try.

now i am off to chat chat chat, and to spend the state of florida's money on a massive order of cds. tootlees!~

Sat, 02 Nov 2002 23:19:33 GMT

Who are you?

Sat, 02 Nov 2002 22:40:47 GMT

what band member are you?
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some people are just so nice

Sat, 02 Nov 2002 17:46:29 GMT

some people are so nice, it kills me (not actually). right now i've got a small handful of people that keep me from hating all of mankind. really, they're so great, it's unbelievable. just a short list of what some of these people do (this list does not contain all of the people, or all of the greatness that these people are):

C.W.V. - i love it when you call me doll. you make me feel smart and beautiful, two things i don't often feel. over the past couple days, you've been very instrumental in the keeping amber sane campaign. last night when you left for bed, what you said was so nice and meaningful, it brought tears to my eyes.

M.A.C. - quite possibly one of the greatest human beings on earth, and you don't even realize it. you are always so considerate toward everyone and everything, even when most of the world treats you like shit. for someone so young, you are so full of wisdom. that music page you made really means a lot to me, and i will forever associate these songs with the wonderfulness that is you.

Jen - i love it when you call me just to tell me something like they're playing a spacehog song over the wally world speakers. i'm glad all the shit that's been going down in your life recently seems to be almost over. i can't wait to see you when i come home for thanksgiving.

its kinda funny that i wrote that like i did, because as far as i know, only a third of those particular people actually read this.

now, i would like to make an excuse for my terrible writing on this thing. i usually do this right when i wake up. i know that's a shitty excuse, but it's all i've got.

yea, i think i'm done now. by the way, i slept in my panties again last night. it was wonderful.

Fri, 01 Nov 2002 17:58:02 GMT

i think i want to join a nudest colony...

it's that time of the day again

Fri, 01 Nov 2002 17:02:27 GMT

this morning hasn't been too shabby. i woke up all on my own, after a comfortable five hours of almost naked sleep. now if i could just somehow erase most of yesterday from existance...

i talked....

...in the middle of that sentance, who should call me but my mom. i just hung up with her. RAH! she's calling back in an hour to check on me and make sure i've set up an appointment with an advisor and looked up my calc professor's office hours. :sigh:

back to what i was saying: i talked to my mom yesterday through AIM. it was mostly a sad convorsation. i apologized for being a shitty daughter, and since she didnt reply, i guess she agrees. i feel bad though, because i've been added to her list of things that are depressing (and she's givin me quite a few things to add to mine). the list looked something like this:
aunt marie is doing terrible (she's got cancer)
grampa might have cancer
my daughter is giving up on her future

i have always been kinda a grampa's girl, so to hear this really upset me. however, since he hasnt seen a specialist yet (hes going next week), im trying to keep my hopes up.

i learned from two of my friends yesterday that if your problems are not as bad as some one else's, then you don't have any problems. there is a lot i can say (and have said) about this, including agreeing that my life could be worse, but mostly i just want to say that different people take different things differently. i understand that someone who has, say, had someone they were close with die, might not think my problems are much to fret about. however, i am still fretting, and i would like to think that my friends would stand by me and support me, whether they find my problems trivial or not. i always support my friends, and i cant always feel what theyre feeling. this last paragraph made no sense, but i had to get something about that out.

on a happier note, mitch, rosie, and carrington are still great. greater than great even. i <3 you guys.

and on a still happier note, last night i slept in nothing but my panties. it was nice.

oh the joys of being a human

Thu, 31 Oct 2002 16:55:27 GMT

sooo, yesterday when i was on the phone crying at my cousin, she asked me if this guy could call me, because he'd probably be able to help me a lot with some of my problems. i told her yes, but please wait a few days, as right now i don't feel like i could possibly be nice to anyone on the phone (even though bill is a VERY nice man).

so guess who woke me up today? yea, him. will there ever be a day when i can sleep without someone calling me??? and does the person calling ALWAYS HAVE TO TALK ABOUT SCHOOL?!?!

in other news... yesterday my mom called me, then hung up on me. she never came out and said it, but i think she thinks im a failure. she DID tell me im lazy and undisciplined, again. she also got pissed when i told her i've not set up an appointment with an academic adviser, and told me not to talk to her til i did. then she hung up. see, now this is why you should lie to your mother... ive always been truthful, and now she hates me. she didn't even seem to give a shit when i told her im depressed. gotta love my mom.

i think i should just stop answering the phone.

i would just like to take this moment to say that mitch, rosie, and carrington are the best people alive. you are my support group.

last night i chatted a little with zach from no pants tuesday about art and my comic and stuff. he was very helpful and encouraging. i also talked to him this morning. that guys such a nice dude.

and on a final note, my room mate is gone for the weekend. i really love my room mate, but im glad she's gone. now i might get some naked time. weee.

just realized something

Wed, 30 Oct 2002 17:04:01 GMT

i just realized that my anonymous commenter is likely syrath. sorry i fucked it up before, im not able to put two and two together very well lately. but i still think that m.a.c. should start one of these. somehow it's easy to spill your guts to the world when you know that no one you really know is reading it.

also, ROSIE GET SOME SLEEP!!! I LUV U!! but if you don't sleep, you're likely gonna end up like me.